Reverse what??

Yesterday was a crazy day! We got up kind of late and gave both kids baths. Avery only ate a little bit at 10am and then fell asleep. We packed up and took them over to the sitters because I had a job interview at 1pm (it takes about 15 mins to get there). I got showered and dressed for the interview and when I was ready (12:27pm)I stood in front of the entryway mirror. I didn't feel like I looked like a pharmacist I still feel like a 21 year old college girl... so I decided to go check my email(12:31). While reading Jen's email with her questionnaire answers, Mark came downstairs (12:37) and reprimands me and tells me to get in the car and leave already! I realized I was procrastinating b/c I didn't want to go, I don't want to be a "working" mom...I am so used to being in school that I don't know how to handle being a "non-student", not to mention a professional. After complaining to mark, half-jokingly, that I didn't want a job (12:44), I finally got in the car and drove out there.

The interview was a success and they offered me a job. But it was surreal b/c there I was acting as cool as a cucumber, when inside my head a running dialogue was taking place. I can't believe someone would offer ME a job for so much money. Pharmacists are sort of overpaid (in my opinion) and these people have no idea if I am a good pharmacist (neither do I for that matter) all they care about is that I will have a license and can fill a "spot"...a VERY expensive spot at that! Do I really deserve that kind of salary?!? Anyway, I have another onThursday and after that one, I will make a decision (I GUESS, if I HAVE to!) On my way home from the interview, I stopped at Target (2:27pm)to exchange some clothes I got for Avery in the wrong size. I just love Target's "table" selection in the summer. You know what I am talking about? The little table that has Target brand clothes shirts and shorts for 3.99$ each?? I also bought my SIL 3 outfits for our upcoming little nephew, Trevor. And since I can't forget Xander, he got a Robots DVD.

Next I pick up Mark (3:02pm) and we grab a quick, but LATE, lunch at Penn Station (YUM!)...run to pick up the kids(3:31pm) b/c Avery has a check up at 4pm. The sitter told us that Avery had NOT eaten a single ounce the whole day!! She just refuses to take a bottle! She had fallen asleep in the car seat so I didn't wake her to feed her and just headed to the dr's. It was terrible...we had to wait forEVER and Xander was cool for about 15-20 minutes, then he had HAD it! I was so desperate that I let him share his book with another child (hopefully not there with a contagious illness). After potentially-contagious boy's mom read the book to both kids, they shared one of their potentially contaminated books with Xander. He is so NOT shy and when I came near to make sure he was being good, he pushed me away and told me to sit down! :) So, finally we saw the Dr (5:15pm) and Avery is fine but still hasn't eaten! However, now she is awake and getting mad that I am holding her w/o feeding her. We finally went to the lactation room in the hospital and i fed her (5:45pm). That is over 7 hours w/o eating!!

After getting home, I fed her the entire night about every hour! She normally wakes up in the night once to be fed and last night it was 5 times! This morning I called the lactation office and they informed me that she is doing something called REVERSE CYCLE NURSING! Now, is it just me or does this sound made up?? I guess it is when babies don't eat all day long while awake but then eat all night long to make up for it! It usually happens when mom's go back to work! Why me? Anyway, they gave me lots of things to try, but I have a feeling my stubborn little girl is just going to stay this way forever! She is totally against all things entering her mouth except my you-know-whats (no creeps here!) I guess this is just another sign that I shouldn't get a JOB! Right? :)